The country in winter has the softest light, touched by the Sun but never drenched. With stark lines in her personality and deep wells of curiosity in her face, Maya Nelson Wolfsdottir manages to bring the most mysterious shadows to any session. These shots are from Reykjavik in January 2011.

The Wolf Before Winter


A short movie produced by Blue, Dave Snider and Sandie Black. The movie tells a story about the meeting of writer Blue with a fiery farmgirl who lives in the Arctic and is the daughter of a wolf. The movie is being used as the paradigm for a series of short and cheap movies to be produced by Blue et al. The movies all make heavy use of photographic images as well as video and graphic design.


From a letter from a muse to his maker: "Do you know 15 years ago I wrestled with a guy in a tiny town in the jungle near Tikal, in Guatemala, until he gave me the keys to the cages where three jaguars were kept? And I let out the jaguars and they ran off into the trees? I cannot go to Guatemala again because I think they would put me in a cage! What bothered me was the fact that the jaguars in the cages were visited at night by wild jaguars. The wild ones pissed on the cages or fucked in the freedom and the ones behind bars had to sit there suffering. I could not stand that idea. Yes, you are burnt into my brain because I see you in a cage. And the keys are right here, in these photographs. This is another jaguar who can tear up the world if nobody grabs her. Just let her go. It’s not like I want to hold onto you and say do this or do that, but that I can open the door and get out of your way, and if I am very lucky the cat realizes I had something to do with her freedom, and she asks me to follow her and see everything she does, how wild her nature really is. This is the story I have tried to write all my life. I think it is a fundamental way that men look at women, or romanticize about what females think and feel. But there are not books like this." -- January 11,2009. This passage is used as the opening lines of the section called "Farmgirl In Pieces" in a short movie being edited by Dave Snider in Washington, starring Maya Nelson and written by Blue.

. . . we are dreamlike creatures that love the good stories of daylight. I have become an art sucker but every show or conversation I witness seems like a sell-out to me. Everyone’s soul is for sale for a single small passion . . .
— Maya Nelson Wolfsdottir

Every day I wake up to find that there is a small hole in my life. Every time I lie down to sleep, that small hole pokes me in the back or in the ribs and keeps me from getting comfortable enough to fall asleep. And in my dreams the small hole becomes a bigger hole, big enough that I can fall into it and by doing so fall right out of my own life. This scares me so much that sometime I wake up, and find there is a small hole in my life. I keep living. I keep making people smile or laugh or think, and nobody seems to notice the small hole in my step, or the small hole in my grip, or the small hole in my voice or in my eyes or in my paths. Sometimes I think the stray cats in the alley know that I am walking around these holes, because they too have holes in their lives. Nobody asks me about these holes. Sometimes I tell people the only thing that can fill a hole in my life is my faraway friend, a secret I keep at the top of the world, but that I shouldn't tell her this because I don't want to accidentally cause her to have a small hole in her life because she might worry about me.